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take off all your clothes.

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 03:48:08 GMT

it's incredibly liberating.

friends.

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 21:10:10 GMT

making friends is easy.

keeping friends is murder.

I met a ton of amazing, talented, funny, impressive people over the summer (also, I consider my summer to have officially ended this past weekend, I think I stretched it out for two longer than it should have been) and I often say that the only people you can really stay friends with are the people who you are meant to stay friends with (your friendships work well to the point at which keeping them become effortless) but with university in full swing I feel like I haven't given those friendships enough effort and were probably never even meant to be. With university in full swing, also, I feel like I shouldn't be focusing on all this stuff as much as I am.

Just some stuff I've been thinking about.

conversation with reema.

Thu, 27 Aug 2009 03:54:38 GMT

sabid. says:

and that's why chicks like him. he's boring. boring is unintimidating.

reeeema(is packing) says

thats true

very true actually

opinions?

5 am ponderings.

Sun, 12 Jul 2009 08:04:42 GMT

I've given up on trying to impress my parents. I've already disappointed them in the few biggest ways I could ever have, so I see no point in trying to undo those mistakes. I'm glad I've stopped caring as much as I use to. I'm applying to art school next year, probably without letting my parents know (at least until I acquire some sort of substantial admission). At least, that's the plan.

If I thought the way my father does, or had the same thoughts as he does in my own head, I probably would have killed myself ages ago. I don't mean that hyperbolically, but honestly. I can not understand how that man lives with himself.

I've never been in a relationship and now I can understand why. It's because I don't let myself. I don't trust myself, and I think that's one instinct of mine I truly admire; the fact that I can look after myself, when it comes to relationships. I'm aware of what I'm capable of and internally, I'm greatly aware of why I do the things I do. Lately, I've been thinking: it's summer, you have time and money and no real commitments, now that school is over. I could meet new people, try out that plentyoffish site everyone's been talking about. But I've noticed that every time I consider it, I remind myself that I'm not in a really stable place in my life right now and committing myself to someone else is probably the most dangerous thing I could be doing to myself.

My only two regrets in life are, one, skipping Katy Perry for Mayday Parade at the Warped Tour last year and, two, not experimenting with cocaine after my last exam of this past year of university.

I'm the least excited person for my birthday, not being a bummer about it, but I'm really not that excited. I'll make the most of it, though, or else I might regret it later.

I've accepted the fact that I’m not going to find a job this year, so I’ve quit looking.

I wish I spoke better French.

Bye :D

at Starbucks...

Wed, 10 Jun 2009 02:19:43 GMT

I order the grandé mocha because I like the idea of an accent being able to make me look like a cultured douchebag.

How long...

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 23:54:44 GMT

can you keep going before you can give up?

Update.

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 18:12:27 GMT

Fuck, I wish I could be as big of a bitch I am in my head as I am on the outside.

There is so much shit I need to let out've my system, it's terrifying.

He's "Mr. Save-the-World".

I'm "Mr. Make-the-Grade".

Sometimes...

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 06:36:08 GMT

I wish I had the time to wreck myself.

It's been nearly three years since last doing this...

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 09:52:11 GMT

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	62%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	74%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	34%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	82%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Humanitarian	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	90%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Family drive	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Honor	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Thriftiness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%

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Stability results were high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic..

Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.

Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

trait snapshot:

messy, disorganized, social, tough, outgoing, rarely worries, self revealing, open, risk taker, likes the unknown, likes large parties, makes friends easily, likes to stand out, likes to make fun of people, reckless, optimistic, positive, strong, does not like to be alone, ambivalent about chaos, abstract, impractical, not good at saving money, fearless, trusting, thrill seeker, not rule conscious, enjoys leadership, strange, loves food, abstract, rarely irritated, anti-authority, attracted to the counter culture

three years ago: http://blogs.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.view&friendId=45352825&blogId=125621101

adult.

Sun, 01 Feb 2009 03:31:02 GMT

\ə-ˈdəlt, ˈa-ˌdəlt\

adjective
Latin adultus, past participle of adolescere to grow up, from ad- + -olescere (from alescere to grow)
1531

1 : fully developed and mature

2 : of, relating to, intended for, or befitting adults

3 : dealing in or with explicitly sexual material

4 : something Sabid Ali just may never be